It's not fair to say "Happy Monday", because we all know - teenagers especially - that that idea exists just as much as unicorns or low-calorie chocolate.
Don't you hate those days where it's not even second period yet and you've already forgotten 4 out of 5 things you reminded yourself to remember the night before, and you just know...today's gonna suck. Well dear readers, today was one of those days. It's finals season round here, and I'd like to think I do fairly well under pressure, but the hard truth is that I am most definitely not. I am impatient, almost always frustrated with something, and to top it all off, I'm a p-word... I said it, I'm a flipping perfectionist. Nothing I do is ever really finished or good enough; there is always somethng to scrutinize or re-adjust. Which for the great and famous journalist I plan on being, that's a good and bad quality to have. For the growing artist I currently am, it's mostly a bad thing.
Which leads me to the part where I explain the title of this entry. I have made three (3) and only three resolutions this year, all of which I have inscribed on my lovely whiteboard hanging above my bed - three of which I will carry with me every day and keep to the best of my ability. So help me Gawd.
1. To stop judging, scrutinizing, criticizing, or thinking any more bad-karma thoughts about anyone - including myself.
2. To give up and let go of fears - fears of being wrong, fears of being judged, fears of not being perfect, and fears of spiders. I have kept myself from learning so many things and missed so many opportunites because I've been too afraid to see myself fail.
3. To take each day and enjoy every minute of rain, fog or sunshine - be greatful for this moment and for everyone surrounding me I am lucky to enjoy it with. Look towards the sun, and the shadows will fall behind you.
It's on the Internet now, so I can't hide from it :) I should start feeling more beautiful, radiant and happy after about a week of this new diet - I highly reccomend it.
peace
love, nat
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